can there ever be a day where me an you dont try so hard to chase one another? i think we should just have an all natural relationship with no fake shit where we play hard to convince or to be pretending to play dumb. i think me an you should just be honest with each other with no denying one another.
cuz really? whats a relationship when theres 2 people denying one another an not believing each other? i believe in you but i want you to do your part an believe in me. i love everything about you but theres those days where we play games alot an im getting sick of it. theres never a time where you accept me being so sweet an sincere.
im a genuine person, very honest, straight forward, caring, an lastly… loving. but we shouldnt be playing those games where we test each other by having each other being puppets an obeying their masters. cuz thats not how love is.
baby, i want this to last a very long time, that’s why i wanna work things out with you. im sorry i couldnt say this in person because i have trouble thinking of what to say when im with you. i still get those butterflies when im with ya. <3
we just gotta work it out an communicate with each other. honestly its not that hard. i wanna know how you feel an i wanna know what makes you happy. i think that’s the most important part.
there are just too many complications happening. relationships with people change too easily. an i dont like it. i guess im just too observant, i dont like how things have changed between people an things alike. i just want a life with no drama with people not taking advantage of my kindness.
sometimes i feel like cuddling with her but sometimes theres just this wall that splits us. like theres this feeling deep inside that just separates us. and it just pushes me away from her like if she needs space. i needa understand that maybe she just doesnt feel like doing anything at all.
i feel that just even putting my arms around her feels so awkward. it feels so weird that i dont even wanna do it. its like my mind is trained to do more than just putting my arms around her. my mind just says to cuddle with her cuz if we dont, the moment would get all awkward. i dont want any awkward moments in the relationship. i dont really know how to solve the problem that were having. maybe give her some space? maybe giving her, her friend time?
im so sorry for making you feel like shit sometimes. when i do things, sometimes i dont think about it. im too into the moment that i dont think twice about things. i hope im not slipping away from your grasp. an i hope you can forgive me.
gotta understand that i wanna have as much fun as i can with you cuz i wont see you for the whole summer! i wanna be yours forever an ever but we just gotta change for the good. gotta be more happy an get along with each other. but mainly i think its because of me an how grumpy i can get.
but also you gotta understand also that i adore you so much an i treat you like if you were a newborn baby but, you can only do so much pushing an pulling away that you might get tired of doing it…. so whats worth the trying ya know what i mean? your my first girlfriend an i know we make mistakes an i know we tend to do stupid shit when we dont think about it but were all human.
i know i may be such a drama queen when i complain about you pushing me away or “forcing you to do things” but we gotta live life to the fullest an we gotta live life like its our last day seeing each other. gotta hold nothing back an whatever happens… happens.
her love is like the wind…. i cant see it, but i sure can feel it.
sometimes i can live like a human being cause i can feel her love whether shes physically there or when shes away. i feel the cold refreshing breeze sending me chills on my skin. i can feel the veiling love that comes to me when the wind blows. in my heart shes gonna be there to stay. everyday when the wind blows its like her spirit is right in front of me giving me a big hug. a hug that i can feel that makes me fee like im in peace with the whole world.
what im trying to say is, she will always be in my heart whether shes there with me or not. an i can feel her love with the blowing wind that comes at me everyday. where ever life takes me ill always feel the love that comes at me. its whats in the heart that counts.
i feel that playing along that we’re happy won’t change anything. i don’t like the way how couples play along an act like they’re happy. its pretty dumb. like in the outside they’re all happy, then on the inside they’re having such big problems.
that’s what makes this world a world. too confusing to even describe.
i found it kinda ironic that yesterday during lunch, there was this girl that sang to me an ma girl. i forgot what song it was but, she did pretty good. but me an ma girl knew she was drugged up when she sang but i played along an cheered for her :)